this is shit . [25 Feb 2008|05:57pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Why did you mess with forever . john Mayer . ] I can't fucking believe this . With him was no better than being without him . I feel like im in a fucking hole & i can't climb out . My heart is so heavy , I don't know how to fix it . It has never felt more broken than now . i want to scream and yell & until I can't scream anymore & I don't have a voice to . What is this existence for ? Why do I even bother ? If it's always gonna be him , whats the point ? That's really why I don't date . My heart and head aren't in it . I wish i could find him . Just to talk to him . To . . . something . I don't know . What I do know is that i hate this & it's just as unbearable as being with him . WHERE IS THE MEDIUM . DOES IT END ? IT DRIVES ME CRAZY . MY HEAD NEVER STOPS & I CAN'T GO THAT FAST . post comment

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